Going back.

It’s 10:07 pm and on a very regular day I’m supposed to be dozing off. Or have already gone. My alarm has gone off twice and my sleep mode is visibly activated. But my spirit says you have to write. I’m like noo. I’ll do that tomorrow. But I can’t. I need to do this. And now. So here we go.

Last Friday my buddy said herh you you’ve stopped doing your devotion. Out of the damn blue. Like no one asked him anything. Totally unprovoked. And you could literally hear a pin drop because it was deafening what the silence was. Like “drops mic” kinda situation. I’d share my quiet time with him everyday and be insistent that we read it and act like a Sunday school teacher asking what the text and memory verse said and what not.

It happens that since this year started, listen I haven’t had my devotion fully and properly if you know what I mean. Every once in a while I say ” oh it’s the bookshop they don’t have the devotional”. But guess what? I lied. There’s an app for the devotional I was only making excuses. I don’t even understand.

As many of you may well know, I’m a Christian. Pretty much God’s girl. And we have a very special relationship that I find beautiful and intense and fluid. That fluidity functions and is fueled by my consistency in prayer and devotion. So I pray. A lot. So much. But the scale is skewed because I haven’t had my proper course meal.

I’m here to say, if you’ve been like me or have drifted all the way that’s who God’s looking for.

The Bible says in Psalm 127 “Except the Lord build the house, they labour in vain that build it: except the Lord keep the city, the watchman waketh but in vain.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭127:1‬ ‭KJV‬‬

https://www.bible.com/1/psa.127.1.kjv

That is to say, we cannot do it without you, Lord.

And so father all we want to say is we’re sorry. Here we are. Back into your full solace. Properly sitting in your tabernacle. Cause your undeserving goodness and mercy to brood over us. Match our strides. Our going’s and coming’s Lord, may you order them. All we want to say is Father you’re worthy to receive honor and glory.Take all of it.

Truly your bar is unmatched.

PS: Sorry if some words are repetitive. I’m not editing this, I want this to be as genuine as genuine can be. x